This Blog will be a little different.
This week marks the second month I will have fully lived in Syracuse. Readjusting is not easy. But let me also tell you the other thing that isn't easy.
Being alone, and starting over. I know I have talked about it before, but it is about to get real.
I love to tell anyone and everyone about how I have the most supportive counterpart ever. Because I do, he is SO amazing. I don't even have to tell him when I am upset, he just knows. And whether it is a call, or an "I love you!" text, he always makes sure I know that he is there for me whenever I need him.
He is my safety net and my best friend. I am madly in love with him and so thankful to have him by my side, and I hope that I can always support him the way he does me.
But the other side of things, when he is at work, or out with friends, or even just in the other room, is the looming loneliness that I always have with me, knowing that I am thousands of miles away from everyone I love. Now don't let this fool you, it sucks so bad, and for the longest time, I cried and cried, and called my dad, then my mom, and lost sleep. Because it sucks to leave your comfort zone, and start over in a new place where everyone has known each other since they were kids.
But guess what? That's exactly what people feel like coming from other places to where I am from. So that makes me feel so much better. But also, a thing that I really miss is hugs. Human contact. The only friends I have made here so far are David's friends and family. Which is awesome because I love them all, but I want to make my own new friends and feel like I have a special external connection here that isn't solely linked to my boyfriend.
Which leads me to another horrible topic. Making new friends in a new place is HARD. Especially when you don't know the areas, or where is and isn't safe. Also, when you don't have a car. These things make it difficult.
Facetiming my best friend every day also makes me miss her more and more. One of the things I am going to do when I get back home to visit, is hug her, because I miss the crap out of her beautiful face!
So this is what it has been like, transitioning from one coast to the other. Today is a short one, because I am a little sad, and I am currently homesick.
See you all soon.
XOXOX
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